Dear Christophe,
After yesterday's session, I couldn't put the experience into words... so intense that it had to subside first... There was also some emotion that surfaced at the end (which you had sensed and heard correctly)...
The tears already welled up on the way home... I felt so much emotion and gratitude for how I was allowed to land softly, in complete safety... how I was allowed to simply receive for a moment... how intensely I was allowed to feel my own energy in every part of my body... the feeling of inner strength that gave me... soft, feminine, but so incredibly powerful... At the same time, there was a kind of sadness... for missing these moments of landing and receiving outside of this session... for never having been able to feel that energy so intensely in the 45 years that I've been alive... Gratitude and emotion prevailed!!!
Thank you for your loving presence. Thank you for the safety you offer, in which I, as a woman, could fully open myself to everything that could be experienced.
Under your hands, body and mind were allowed to completely unwind, the nervous system completely relaxed... And that amplified the effect of everything that followed... Energy doesn't flow in a system full of tension...
And that energy certainly flowed! During a previous tantra massage with a female therapist, I had already briefly experienced how sexual energy, instead of being short-lived and directed outward, could also remain within the body and be circulated, until you felt it vibrate throughout. During yesterday's session, I experienced that even more intensely, for much longer...
It became a repeating cycle of that energy that could be generated again and again, circulated (I remembered your tip from the conversation beforehand about drawing that energy upward, as it were), and then softened again... the energy kept coming, kept flowing, seemingly inexhaustible, never experienced before... each cycle felt more powerful, and at the same time, it brought me more into surrender... Surrendering to my own feminine power... that's what it feels like.
I slept deeply and relaxed last night, it's been a long time... This morning I was told my eyes were shining... The eyes are a reflection of the Soul, the Shen... I feel that power and energy within me too... And when I focus, I still feel the up and down movement of that energy ever so slightly...
Thank you for what I was able to receive and experience. Thank you for creating the safe space where this was possible. Thank you for your Being; you carry such beautiful energy within you.