The experience was good and positive and I am glad I did it. No guilt, a little "shame" as i have to hide this part of myself to people close to me.
What's positive: I could let my over-sensitive body "be" and experience multiple and successive moments of joy, even if my head was often trying to take control.
It was also difficult at the begining, and a few times during the massage, to accept being watched, but i felt much more at ease than I expected. Thank you for that!
The pressure in my heart chakra almost dissipated, maybe crying and walking afterwards helped.
I am wondering how the massage let this vulnerability show up in this timing.
Also, the slow continuous movement during the internal yoni massage felt sooo right! I was a bit overwhelmed after the massage.
I still have body movement, and pleasure in my body with no action from my part... Thank you!