I. V.

Due to persistent physical complaints that were inexplicable according to the medical world, I started looking for alternatives to heal myself. I went to a chiropractor who found that my body was blocked internally. Because of this and also a feeling of skin hunger, I got the idea to opt for a massage. A friend said to me “Why not tantra?”, and so the story began…

Tantra, is that something for me? I hardly dared google the word, let alone undergo such a massage. Nevertheless, I looked it up and the subject intrigued me. I'd like to try this sometime. After further googling I came across Christophe's site. A confidential photo of him made me read on. A nice explanation of what to expect gave me a correct feeling. I called and the appointment was made quickly. If I changed my mind, I could still cancel. The closer the time of the appointment came, the more my curiosity took over my doubts.

There I was at the agreed time, ready and with a super small heart. Nervous and with the necessary tension in the body. The door opened and there was the familiar face. Christophe gave me a handshake, which immediately made me feel safe. We started talking and his attitude radiated calm which made me feel more and more at ease. He emphasized that I could stop the session at any time if it no longer felt right for me. Well, I was ready...

The room was warmed up well, and an incense stick provided a pleasant scent. The music touched me, which gave me a relaxed feeling. I lay on the mat and felt the heartbeat in my stomach. The last traces of fear disappeared as I felt the warmth of his hands through the towel. Every touch made me feel like everything was fine and I didn't have to worry. I forgot how insecure I am about my body, I felt in the right place at the right time.

The massage quickly gave me a sense of security, which was a reflection of the lack of this in my childhood. It felt so good. Step by step I felt my body melt. Unbelievable how a touch on a certain body part brings out a unique feeling. A rollercoaster of emotions goes through me. This is both positive, such as a blissful feeling, and drastic when a released emotion makes you shed a tear. I don't have to account for anything, everything is allowed and possible here. How happy I am, as someone who likes to keep control, that my body has decided to allow and enjoy all this.

When Christophe whispered "please" at the end of the session, a very grateful feeling overcame me. I had never experienced this before and even exceeded every expectation. My body felt like it was being completely disassembled and put back together. I had no idea what time it was, but one thing was for sure: I'll be back for sure. This turned out to happen faster than planned, because that same week I was back for a second session.

The days after a massage I can still feel the boost of life energy. I try to hold on to this powerful energy flow that I have experienced as best as possible and to use it in daily life.

Yes, tantra is definitely something for me… Paradise is not a place, just a feeling!