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Love for my children,
Love for animals,
Love for my husband.
Both receiving and giving.
Those are the kinds of love I knew. And that was enough, someone like me couldn't expect more, could I?

And then, with the help of others, you make a click.

The first click is self-love, which I barely knew existed. And she is more powerful than all the others combined.
It is not only accepting your body and taking the time every morning to let it wake up gently, but also listening to what it needs.
Even more difficult is to accept and love your inner self. The good, the bad and the ugly. For me it is also no longer accepting some things about myself and working to become the best version of yourself. The version I want to be, not the version people want to make of me. So also be hard sometimes, in all love. Probably a life's work, but I notice a difference with every step I take. Difference in how I feel,  and how others are gradually feeling. I dare to let go, but am I not exaggerating?

Love between women: in 2 days 2 women tell me that I shine. I accept the compliment, still with a little hesitation, but what is mind-blowing is that it comes from women. That half of the population that I never clicked with, that could sometimes drink my blood. I can't answer why.
Have they also changed or are they just reacting positively because I am too?

Love
Can you be in love with more than one person? I've always believed that you can nip falling in love in the bud for any reason, but I'm increasingly wondering why that has to be done? Because the Church says so? Because you're either branded a monogamist or a nymphomaniac? That there are no in-betweens in my world? But can someone match with someone else in all their facets? Isn't it part of the fun in life that you can be challenged and challenge yourself? And I mean first, but not only, mentally.
Is really liking, not being happy when the other person is happy? Even if it is with a different way of life? Time will tell how I evolve further in this...

But now I'm ready to come out of the closet: as a love bug. 🥰