A.V.

I was already familiar with energetic massage before.
In my search for massages online I discovered tantra massage.
Thought that wasn't for me and always thought it had sexual intentions.
But by reading the site and especially the testimonials, I had to change my mind. And I also became curious. Since just this year I felt that the whole hassle of negative childhood and relationship experiences could be addressed and the opportunity presented itself.
I don't understand yet that I dared but I just went for it.

I thought it was quite scary to say things in advance in the conversation that I had never told anyone before. And I already felt grief coming up then.
I swallowed that but from the beginning of the massage the tears came out.
I was reassured by the peace and security Christophe provided.
And it was just that lovingly being touched in respect and safety that took out all the sadness.
Somewhere I was catapulted back to my childhood, the years of lack of touch and contact came up and still are coming out.
Until now it feels like an inner child healing especially to me.
A bath of loving nurturing.
Just feeling present and feeling what that does to me.
I experience it as a cocoon of loving enclosure in which I can take shelter for a while, be with everything there is.

It helps me enormously to sink back into my body and to get a stronger connection with myself.

I noticed that in the following weeks I ended up in situations that triggered that lack of touch again. I saw a father holding his daughter on his lap.
I noticed more and still how people connect with each other.
I finally threw out my cot in which I still slept and found exactly the large bed that I have been looking for for a long time.

In short, the massage keeps on working through afterwards.
Worth repeating.
🙂