It was, in a word, amazing! How I enjoyed your loving touches. Only now do I know and feel what is meant by loving touches. I couldn't think of a more appropriate word. And now the morning after the massage, the thought of the massage still fills me with a warm and relaxed feeling. It was wonderful just to have to receive. Everything revolved around me. That was what I so needed. I also notice that the mantra has worked well. I really feel it.
At the start I really had to cross a hurdle. This was so out of my comfort zone. Fortunately, this feeling was allowed to exist and was not condemned. Partly because of this and because I was able to surrender after a few minutes, I was able to open up completely and enjoy it immensely. Afterwards I was very tired. I slept 12 hours last night. Apparently I needed this. The next morning I feel satisfied and I have a more positive self-image. If this is the feeling after one day and after my first tantra massage, I am very sure that this suits me and more tantra massages will follow.
Christian, thank you for this indescribable experience! And the safety in which I was able to experience this.